I know, I know, very unpopular! I just want to confess that this weekend I was put in a situation where I had to face some uncomfortable situations and it forced me to choose forgiveness like over and over again. I will say that the hardest things for me to forgive are pertaining to my children (what mom can not relate to this!) and to injustice. I could quote scripture about all the many benefits in forgiveness, and why it hurts us more than the person we are upset with to keep the grudge, but most of you know them. Knowing me, I will anyway before this is done. Because even though I know them, I need them to be fresh in me over and over! And if I "know" them so well, why aren't I living them yet? I mean every time? Because, it is a process and we have to keep "forgetting what is behind" and "pressing on".
My good report is that by yesterday morning and ever since I am at a really good place. Where I can honestly pray a heart-felt prayer for outrageous blessing on the persons. Will I stay at this good place? I will most likely wobble from time to time...but, as long as I don't give up, I will not yield this territory I have gained. In case you are wondering, not only does Jesus instruct us in this, but I have found it extremely mmm...I guess therapeutic is the right word...I mean you find yourself cheering the person or people on, by the time you are done. For instance, by this morning, my prayer is that God will outrageously bless this group of people and bring them into a new place of kingdom dominion. I pray that it will be unmistakable that God is at work and on the job, so that He will get the glory and they will get the joy!
I will close with these two scriptures, because without them to renew my mind, I would be unable to move forward. One motivates & one gives me great hope! Because if He said it, then I can do it & if His love is put inside my heart...then it is not ME loving in my own power, but HIS power in me to love! Who am I to argue with that? Check it out:
- Matthew 5:44 "But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;" and then,
- Romans 5:5 " And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us".
OK, Ya'll, thanks for humoring me in this topic I have sooo struggled with, wish me well & I wish you well!!